Dark-Gemini

I guess there is no really good reason to update this other than it's been almost two years since I have. My life has changed drastically, as anyone could predict. Now I'm in love. In a way it's amazing how I feel for this boy, a complete calm overcomes me when he's around but at the same time I get so flustered by him being near me. Just something that I adore. I am finally out of school, but am now in the Navy. I live on never knowing what the next day is going to bring. I try to be full of love and appreciate what is around me. Find the art in everything.

LIstening to my class go on consitantly about life, i'm still stuck on the problems at home. I hate having my parents completely unsupportive and just un... attentive. I have recieved some grand honors lately and I've just been knocked down by them for it lately. Its an absolute disaster. Then the whole thing with Lancelot, who is now trying to talk to me. Such a burden on my life. Totally not going to be emo and worry about my troubles. hopefully my spanish cutie wil help. love.

 Its so amazing how the world can be opened up for mulitple uses and so much is still available to anyone it seems but we still opress ourselves. I'm not in denial that people are restricted by outside sources, which have we have no power over. THe weather, government (technically we have the power to change that but usually lack motovation, will or the knowledge to do so), friends and family can all be hinderances. Still it;s the own self esteem and loathing that can restrict me and other associates to this self hatred. Why is it that people can love me, people all around me that remind me of their empowering love EVERYDAy, yet i can not fin